september

its been exactly a week since the last time i blogged
today i'll try to minimize my blog characters since today isnt exactly the happiest day of my life. shortly, im not in a good mood.
yes yes in life we have our moments
moments of sorrow moments of happiness and moments of anger.
but the thing is i hate the fact that i dont want to talk about it
so i treat people with disrespect and i feel guilty about it,
i dont know why im feeling like thiss.
so the big picture is that
1. i have this problem
2. i cant / dont want / am unable to tell anyone abt it.
so it kinda suck.

have you ever been so speechless that the moment you think bout the cause, your brain just stop thinking about it.
i think im rejecting the fact that it happened
im not making any sense here.

well i am kinda happy too,
because im recovering and all
but i know problems come and go
so this one'll probably slip outta my life someday.
anw,

ignore my words before this line in this post

i want to tell you guys bout petss
i have two meddling dogs.




the white one's a poodle dog.
so he's loyal and loving
i had him since he's under 1 y.o
well whats interesting is the fact that he's older than my nephew which is 6 and my dog is almost 10 years old. yup
if we look at it the human way, my dog's young
but if we look at it via dog age (lol)
my dog will be abt 70 years old (human age )
now thats old enough to celebrate a hell of wrinkles.
this december my dog'll turn ten. and i'll turn fifteen.
the last time i celebrated my dog's birthday was when im 7.
so its been a long time really.
i want to do something nice to my dog.
since he did nice things to me
like accompanying me hanging clothes, keep me entertained when im all dried up.
but i feel sorry cuz the second dog is so much more fun to play with
becausee,
i'll introduce her first,
shes one year old, cute cuddly and hyperactive.
shes a gift from a good friend of mine. he's away now
i havent seen him since last two months and honestly i miss my friend
haha
well what differs them,
the poodle's a male, and the pom's a female.
so genetically or hygiene-wise, the female is cleaner
i dont have to wipe walls when i let it in the house.
so the old one stays outside most of the time.
it literally isnt my fault,
my mom hates dirt. so whether i like it or not,
rules are rules.
dirty ones outside.

i let the little one in like once every two days.
since science class hv been keeping me busy,
sometimes i dont play at all.
im sure that keeps my dog depressed.
but i promised ill make up for it.
i brought home toys or other stuff.
i said sorry already, even though i know my dog wouldnt understand,
i believe in dog instincts.
they can see our hearts, unlike guys.
so there wuz a time im so pissed off. then my dog just sat there next to me quietly.
that soothes me. maybe if we humans can talk to animals, that'd be a hell lot of fun.
if that happens, i'll have a friend to talk to when im bored, and my mouth's dying to move. haha

i thought of a sad thought.
my dog is soon 12, which means end of a toy poodle age.
so i tried imagining days without my poodle.
im sure i'll cry. but now that ive grown up,
my face wont be as ugly as the time when i lost my old dog rocky.

i miss rocky. rocky is a royal dog.
clean, royal and everywhere i take em, everyone thinks he's an expensive dog when the fact is he isnt. haha maybe its because he acts expensive.
he keeps himself clean allthetime. so unlike these present dogs.
but i love em all. theyre like my personal screenless blackberry.
haha :D